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Oct. 12th, 2005 10:42 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
chibi_trillianJeebus Chris, I feel stagnant. I feel like the creative bits of me are rotting away under an onslaught of banality. I haven't written anything other than a silly drabble in months. I don't make icons anymore. I don't do anything anymore. I get home from work, and all I want to do is plug my brain into the internet so I can give it a few brief flickers of amusement after a day of nonstimulation, feed my body, and fall over so I can get up early in the morning. And then do the exact same thing the next day. And the day after that. And the day after that. I can't even get happy when I have a holiday off, because my holidays aren't paid. A day off means a day I don't get money, which means a week where I'm short $60-$50 for my weekly budget.
There are days when I feel like running away, except I have to pay rent so I can't afford to run away.
There are days when I feel like going crazy, except crazy people aren't usually productive workers.
The only way I'll be able to go see my family for Christmas is if they compensate me for lost work hours.
To top it off, I haven't spoken to![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
jacks_shadow in pushing two months. Maybe I ought to stick that friendship in cryo, along with most of my characters and the more exciting parts of my life.
And that was enough of that. It's amazing what a couple of bad weeks at work (and four solid days of rain) can do for my brainmeats. Ethan's still awake, and he likes the rain, because evil wizards like dark and stormy nights.
There are days when I feel like running away, except I have to pay rent so I can't afford to run away.
There are days when I feel like going crazy, except crazy people aren't usually productive workers.
The only way I'll be able to go see my family for Christmas is if they compensate me for lost work hours.
To top it off, I haven't spoken to
jacks_shadow in pushing two months. Maybe I ought to stick that friendship in cryo, along with most of my characters and the more exciting parts of my life.And that was enough of that. It's amazing what a couple of bad weeks at work (and four solid days of rain) can do for my brainmeats. Ethan's still awake, and he likes the rain, because evil wizards like dark and stormy nights.
