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chibi_trillianLast Biochem test of the semester was a crash and burn. None of my studying stuck, and what little I retained from class was driven out of my head by the worst cramps of my life. Sitting in class, teeth sunk into my lower lip, praying for the goddamn slowass painkillers to kick in, all while trying to remember the exact process for glycolysis so I can try and not fail this damn class, has to be one of the worst experiences of my life. And I had a MASSIVE brain-fart forty minutes in and completely forgot the pH equation. Gone. I didn't even remember a hint of it. And I needed it. If I'd have known it, I could have done the easier of the two bigass questions at the end of the test. As it was, I'm getting half-credit at most for the harder of the two. I almost fucking cried. I'll be lucky to get a C on the test. Need C. Need C to keep test average at C. Test average at C = better chance for passing class with C.
If there is a merciful deity and he, she, or it is listening to me, please let me pass this class. My teacher won't even tell me what my grade is, so I don't know how well I need to do on the final--not that it matters, since about 40% of the grade for the class is in the last week and the final. I'm not joking. Final + lab notebook* + lab report* + one last homework assignment just to rub salt in our wounds = ~40% of grade. Things with asterisks are what my lab partners are currently screwing me on--yup, that's right, no information today either. If one of them is actually the humane person she was representing herself as, I'll get it tomorrow. Good lab report can help pull up bad grade. I got a 90% on my rough draft--if I can do as well on my final draft, I'll have given my grade a big boost.
I still have the creeping feeling that even if I study for all of finals week for this damn final, I'll fail.
Hate class. Want to die. Or kill someone.
I wonder if VJC's "D = diploma" policy applies to core requirements? If it does, I have nothing to worry about. But piddling unimportant information like that is not included anywhere in the college catalog. It must be obtained from a human who has naturally already gone home for the day.
EDIT: Figured out my grade in the class: currently 78.2%. I feel somewhat better now, with the not as much with the failingness.
If there is a merciful deity and he, she, or it is listening to me, please let me pass this class. My teacher won't even tell me what my grade is, so I don't know how well I need to do on the final--not that it matters, since about 40% of the grade for the class is in the last week and the final. I'm not joking. Final + lab notebook* + lab report* + one last homework assignment just to rub salt in our wounds = ~40% of grade. Things with asterisks are what my lab partners are currently screwing me on--yup, that's right, no information today either. If one of them is actually the humane person she was representing herself as, I'll get it tomorrow. Good lab report can help pull up bad grade. I got a 90% on my rough draft--if I can do as well on my final draft, I'll have given my grade a big boost.
I still have the creeping feeling that even if I study for all of finals week for this damn final, I'll fail.
Hate class. Want to die. Or kill someone.
I wonder if VJC's "D = diploma" policy applies to core requirements? If it does, I have nothing to worry about. But piddling unimportant information like that is not included anywhere in the college catalog. It must be obtained from a human who has naturally already gone home for the day.
EDIT: Figured out my grade in the class: currently 78.2%. I feel somewhat better now, with the not as much with the failingness.
